i wanna be a $Baller$
well, i had my warped-wedding-4dayweekend in calgary and survived...barely! I think a 4 day vacay is a little bit too long for me 'cause it is such a shock after it's over when i'm @ work and realize it's 2:30 in the aft and im not drinking somewhere on a patio.
When I did come home, suddenly I was just overwhelmed with responsibilities and real life. I actually had a slight panic attack at work. I realized i have completely forgotten to update my student loans info so im pretty sure im being charged some sort of interest on them...i need to apply for more because i certainly haven’t saved enough cashish to get me through the winter...and i had an email from the U of A telling me i owe a $175 confirmation deposit. if i cant afford the deposit how the hell am i gonna afford a whole f-ing year of school?!?!?!
I go through this phase every summer at about this time where I decide I am taking a year off school….i sit back and reflect on the last 3 months and how happy and relaxed and content I have been….and then I reflect a little further back to the last school year and remember how freaking miserable and gay it was and wonder why I choose to torture myself year after year with a 6 month prison sentence at the of U of A. I am just so tempted to blow off my whole life plan..and then I realize…I still have a whole other degree to go after this one! Is this really how I have chosen to live out my twenties? What am I thinking!?! I wonder if it’s really worth it…how much money am I gonna be rollin’ in when Im older to make all this shit worth it? Really…is it ever worth it if Im this bummed out? And then I get worried that after all this shit what if I’m STILL not happy?! What if it’s not school and Edmonton and winter I hate but I’m actually just not meant to be happy? What if I never achieve my goals? The ones that I think are just out of my reach and I can actualize once I have U of A outta the way….that is the most terrifying thought ever…...there should be some sort of “happiness guarantee” that says if u tough out the brutal parts the sweet-ass parts will for sure come. Really, how do u know if doing the “right thing” is ever worth it?
When I did come home, suddenly I was just overwhelmed with responsibilities and real life. I actually had a slight panic attack at work. I realized i have completely forgotten to update my student loans info so im pretty sure im being charged some sort of interest on them...i need to apply for more because i certainly haven’t saved enough cashish to get me through the winter...and i had an email from the U of A telling me i owe a $175 confirmation deposit. if i cant afford the deposit how the hell am i gonna afford a whole f-ing year of school?!?!?!
I go through this phase every summer at about this time where I decide I am taking a year off school….i sit back and reflect on the last 3 months and how happy and relaxed and content I have been….and then I reflect a little further back to the last school year and remember how freaking miserable and gay it was and wonder why I choose to torture myself year after year with a 6 month prison sentence at the of U of A. I am just so tempted to blow off my whole life plan..and then I realize…I still have a whole other degree to go after this one! Is this really how I have chosen to live out my twenties? What am I thinking!?! I wonder if it’s really worth it…how much money am I gonna be rollin’ in when Im older to make all this shit worth it? Really…is it ever worth it if Im this bummed out? And then I get worried that after all this shit what if I’m STILL not happy?! What if it’s not school and Edmonton and winter I hate but I’m actually just not meant to be happy? What if I never achieve my goals? The ones that I think are just out of my reach and I can actualize once I have U of A outta the way….that is the most terrifying thought ever…...there should be some sort of “happiness guarantee” that says if u tough out the brutal parts the sweet-ass parts will for sure come. Really, how do u know if doing the “right thing” is ever worth it?
posted by The Trailor Park Girlz @ 4:44 PM
3 Comments:
At 1:34 PM,
NMZ said…
HAPPINESS GUARANTEE
Although rarely issued, I have decided in my infinite wisdom to issue you, "Linny" with this Happiness Guarantee.
If for any reason what-so-ever you are unsatisfied with this life, please forfit said life. (Please consult a Medical Journal for appropriate methods of forfeit).
Once said life has been received into my infinite bossom of Godliness, I will issue you with another.
Please note, there are no guarantees on second lifes. So be sure to only use this guarantee, if you are sure you are completely unsatisfied with said life.
Signed
NMZ (The creator of the known Universe. Other accreditation to NMZ,include, "Napzilla", "Schmooglemonster", and of course "Billy, the legless triple jumper."
At 6:27 PM,
Unknown said…
You forgot Ninton the COG.
At 1:45 AM,
Waynesday Report said…
Take a year off, maybe two...you can do it. Think of all you can accomplish with the time away from school? Travel, check out the world, lots to see, plenty to do. Stick out your thumb, pretty easy thing to do, and live the adventures. You can guarantee, it will be the happiest choice in your life.
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